Thoughts

Of course it will not be the happiest thoughts - as much as I'm trying hard to make the transition painless and beautiful, it is not the easiest thing, and even less so because of the lack of communication.

A thought is about Argos. His wounds appeared again, and now my mother is looking for nails grown, red eyes, and other symptoms of illness. We fear not only for him but for us - what do we do if he really is sick. The recommendation is simple - put him down.

Another is about Lú. Cortez, herself. I never imagined I could like her so much, in a distant third year of high school. Nowadays, her easy laugh and tranquillity bring a smile to my face when I see her. She is cheerful and contagious as flowers on a sunny field, or something.

Another is about friends. Lovely friends who came to phone me, call me at gtalk, support me on facebook. As much as I have moments of deep loneliness, as I did on Tuesday, I know I have people I can turn to if I need it. Even Pola, wow, so long... They were rays of light. And I also know that there's more timid friends, who only look from afar, but I feel... that they wouldn't mind providing support. Thank you all.

Another is about Alex. I think he doesn't feel as supported as me, and I really wanted to be able to change it for him. He's tough in the fall, but I think he needs someone to talk to - and I'm not enough anymore. I know he has friends, but I think neither side knows how to build the path.

Another is about chocolate: very good. To eat delicious chocolate while reading Narnia.

Or to read delicious chocolate while eating Narnia, I'm not sure what was the order of that.